Expecting never to be found and dreading a lingering death, Chang tried to kill himself the only way he could think of that the rubble would let him -- by reaching his fingers into his brain through his eyes -- and he tried hard enough to make bruises that still show faintly. Then he heard his grandfather calling him, responded, and was rescued. For a while he supported himself by shining G.I. shoes, and earned enough extra after some ten thousand boots to buy "a box camera that worked sometimes."